When A Gift Has Deeper Meaning

Today might be my birthday. Trying to help my husband out I wandered onto the Alex and Ani site and created a wish list. I sent him this and not my Pandora wish list because in my eyes Alex and Ani is a little bit more affordable of an option compared to Pandora.

Now that I am working in an office setting I like to try and spruce up my outfits with some jewelry. My Mom has some Alex and Ani bracelets and I love them and thought they were so cute.

This morning when the boys handed me the gift I opened to a beautiful bracelet.

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It said “What’s for you will not pass by”. This has some serious meaning, Brian could have easily picked out the dragon fly, or the heart but he chose this one.

There were two cards in the box as well. The black card reads:

WORDS ARE POWERFUL
What’s for you will not pass you
OPTIMISM|DETERMINATION|LIFE

When I turned the card over it said:

Your life is destined for greatness. Obstacles will inevitably come your way. Greet them with patience and hard work. Allow the light of fated opportunities to spill through, live in fearlessness, and remember that what’s for you will not pass you.

I loved this so much I went out and purchased the IT IS WHAT IS IS one to wear. This saying sort of drives me nuts but I appreciate it so much more. One of the reasons it drives me nuts is no matter what I am saying, what I am venting about Brian always comes back and says it.

The black card for this one reads:

WORDS ARE POWERFUL
It is what it is
SPONTANEITY|BLESSING|DESTINY

On the reverse:

Sometimes life hands you the unexpected. Embrace these twists and turns as a divine blueprint that will lead you to your destined path and remember to appreciate the journey. Life is unpredictable. Life is an adventure. Life is a blessing. It is what it is and what you make it to be. 

These two bracelets embrace everything in life right now. Where I am and where I am going. I have been working so hard for the past few years that things are finally coming together. I am pretty much where I want to be in life but you must always be moving forward.

As I start on new ventures, build my business and work with other businesses these bracelets I think will become a daily staple, to remind me of where I have been, where I am going and what I have accomplished. I think that they will also remind me that life is challenging.

There is one more bracelet I would love to add from their words are powerful collections and it is this one:

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This is another saying I believe firmly. We may not know right this second why it happens but eventually the lesson will be shown to us.

I had no idea when I picked out a few items and sent the e-mail to Brian that I would end up with a gift that would mean so much to me.

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Being Productive

I have to be productive. I have so much on the go that I need to plan, organize and get things done.

It’s not easy, but by doing certain things I find I can get the majority of things done. Not necessarily when I want but things can be accomplished.

I have had a few conversations with people who are trying to do the same things as I have and had to drop classes because they couldn’t find and make time to study.

I thought I would share what I do to keep on top of things and be productive.

To Do Lists:

I have to do lists. I have a personal one, cleaning one, one for almost every job I work. Sometimes they are done by my superiors at my jobs, sometimes they are jointly made and then there are just the ones I make.

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I love this to do list pad because it can easily with arrows move things to different day and then as priorities change I can move it to the “maybe never” will I ever get this done.

Calendars:

I have the calendar on my phone which is actually a combination of 2 calendars, there is my personal one and my business one. I colour code what I am doing, different colours for Brian’s activities. I also have the calendar on the fridge so Brian has access to what is going on and for quick reference while I am doing morning breakfast stuff.

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Alarms and Timers:

I have alarms set to remind me to do even things like pick up Adam from school. I have an alarm set when I have to go get him and then 30 minutes before I have a warning so I know that I have to start to wrap up and get ready to leave. I have alarms set for all my activities and appointment. Usually 30 minutes before but sometimes the day before. I also frequently use times through the day so I can divide my time equally. If I say I have 1 hour to clean I will set a 1 hour countdown timer on the phone so I don’t lose track of time and end up not getting things accomplished.

Sounds on the Phone:

I have different songs, tones and ringers set on my phone so I know if it is an important message or if it is something I can ignore. I also have sounds assigned to specific people so I know when they are trying to get a hold of me. It’s all about prioritizing and not stopping a task for an email about a sale.

Spreadsheets:

Spreadsheets again go into organization. Spreadsheets to keep track of Christmas shopping, time worked at certain employers, assignments that are due and “what if” scenarios for grades. I save my most important ones on the cloud so I can access them wherever I go. If I end up taking the bus then I can be productive there. If I am shopping I can quickly pull up the spreadsheet so I know what I have bought who.  Spreadsheets also help track money, and help me try to stay on top of my budgets.

Waking up early or staying up late.

People roll their eyes at me when I say I got up at 5:30am. I find my mind works best first thing in the morning. Sometimes it is just better to get up before the birds and get some work accomplished. This morning I did that and I had almost all my required reading and homework done before Adam woke up. When he did I bought a bit more time by letting him sit at my desk and eat breakfast. This took a few things off my to do list and motivated me to keep going through the day. Some people are night owls so it might be better to stay up later too. Just make sure you are getting enough sleep to keep you going all day.

Rewards:

I try to reward myself for accomplishing tasks or completing a long stretch of working days. This is as simple as giving myself permission to sit and watch a movie or read my book. If there is something I really want to do I plan it for the end of my to do list.

Asking for Help:

This is probably the hardest thing for me to do but I am getting better at asking for help and making what I need help with clearer. I also try to take advantage of times where Adam asks to go to Gramma’s house. Even if it is for 30 minutes there is usually something that I can accomplish in that time.

Lowering Expectations:

I use to plan and work hard to make sure my house was “Better Homes and Gardens” ready. I have lowered my expectations on those standards. If my floor doesn’t get swept every day that is ok, if things get dirty that is fine. Those who love me won’t judge me on the cleanliness of my house. They will understand the tasks I am undertaking and appreciate that I can’t necessarily do it all.

This is how I manage to accomplish all I do in a day. There are days where I am juggling too many balls and they drop other times I put on quite a show. It’s not easy and it’s very stressful what I am doing but if I continue this for a little while longer my hard work will pay off. It already has and I am starting to mold and live the life I want to when it comes to balancing work and life.

How do you manage to make it through the day and get everything accomplished? Maybe there is something you do that I can steal!

5:30 AM Thoughts

Last night was a crappy night sleep. Adam is away at a sleep over so I am supposed to relax and sleep in.

Of course the opposite happens. Yesterday I was awake at 6 am and at my desk by 6:30 am.

This morning 5 am and then at my desk at 5:30 am. I come to my desk because when I sit down everything feels right. I have carved a place where I can think and be productive. For some reason my mind hasn’t shut down. This is strange because my courses for the last semester are done, my hours at work have been cut back and my house is fairly clean.

So in point form I’ll just throw some thoughts and things that have been going on around here because I’ve just not had the time to sit down and blog much.

  • Yesterday was my 5 year anniversary of blogging! Whoohoo! I started this blog with no real idea of where and how it would go. I am quite happy with where it is and what it has become. I have met many interesting people virtually. To date I have had 32,982 views. I am sure I could have many more views but this is just my little corner in cyberspace and I’m not out to break any records.
  • Yesterday without realizing it was my 5th anniversary of blogging I also took my business “live”. I am not quite done my courses however I feel as if I am at a point I can start taking on clients. The support has been amazing. It’s going to be a long road to land clients and build my business however I am feeling excited and optimistic.
  • I finished 2 more courses towards my bookkeeping certificate. I was sure I was going fail the Principles of Accounting level two but I managed to get 81%. The other course I landed 82% so the beating I expected my GPA to take didn’t actually happen.
  • I have enrolled in my LAST TWO COURSES! One goal I set out to do this year and probably the only one I am going to achieve is finishing my bookkeeping certificate. I have been working on this for 3 years. To actually finish this will be a huge accomplishment. Between being a Mom, keeping a house and working way to much it is something I am proud to say that I did.
  • Coffee – how did I ever live without you?

My train of thought has just derailed. That is ok because if it didn’t I probably would have gone on forever.

I’d like to take a moment to thank everyone for reading and the support I have received in the many ventures I have been juggling and putting up with me when I get very cranky.

Apologies

I’ve been apologizing a lot latley. Mostly to Brian and Adam but also to many people.

I apologize for:
– being tired
– being stressed
– being overwhelmed
– working too much
– not being available
– not getting things done
– forgetting things

And the list goes on. I apologize to myself for not giving myself enough time, not relaxing, not living up to my own standards.

In all honesty I have to stop apologizing because this is life right now.  I am so lucky however. Those around me understand. When the messages come in to get together and when I can’t there is always an open invite for when I have time. There are many people helping me in various ways to manage my workload and help me get things done. There are people who will listen to me vent, hold me when I cry and laugh with me when I forget to wash my hair.

Maybe it’s just the Canadian in me.

We apologize for everything.

Being Set Up For Failure

The past few weeks have been really rough.

At one job, one person has entered the employee pool and has brought morale so low that half of the employees quit. I am to the point of having full blown anxiety attacks over having to go to work. And I go to work everyday with my letter of resignation in case I’ve had enough. Which I have but I am trying to hold on for a while longer.

At another job I have been beating myself up because I seem completely incompetent. I walked in to help and clean up things and I have been running in circles. It turns out that I was completely set up for failure and the delays in progressing are not not due to my knowledge. Granted I still have so much more to learn.

We’re coming up to the last 19 days of my courses. And I’m to the point where I’m calculating that if I don’t finish a project 100% can I still pass. I hate being a student like that and one course is going to seriously hit my GPA but as it turns out I can only do so much.

I really hadn’t planned to work and be so busy this summer. There is a wave of guilt because everything I wanted to do with Adam is just not happening. I really hope though that he realizes that because of all I am doing this summer should make for a wonderful Christmas and a better summer next year.

There is a master plan in all this chaos, there are dates set for things, completion dates are in sight. And in the long run I will be a better Mommy and wife and a happier person doing what I enjoy.

Have you seen the movie Inside Out? In the end it turns out that some of the best memories in life are born from the saddest parts. I’ll just keep reminding myself that as this picture explains my emotions so well right now:

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Excitement Bubbling

There is an excitement bubbling in my soul.

We’re halfway through the year and things that were just ideas and visions are taking shape.

There is a plan with promise. There have been countless amazing opportunities in the first 6 months of this year that I didn’t even imagine in January.

There is an awful lot of work and stress to still get through but I’m onto something and it’s exactly where I want to go and what I want to do.

I’ll share more details later in the year as things become even more of a reality.

I feel as if the rest of this year holds some amazing things, and I am actually very excited for what next year will bring.

Sometimes I wondered if hard work paid off.

Yes, yes it does.

Time for a Deep Breath

I sit here with my new warm fuzzy boot slippers on and a nice mug of hot chocolate. A great pair of leggings and my big college sweater complete my outfit.

I am watching the leaves fall onto my deck from the trees out back and am thinking I could get use to this.

To say September and October have been a whirlwind is an understatement. To say I have been spread too thin is a statement that I can begin to agree with. I can’t recall two months in my life that have been busier.

However things have changed. In this whirlwind I went from a job that normally in November and December I work until it kills me, to a job where I might not have to work so hard. I am going to have at least every other weekend off, they don’t have crazy extended hours. They have a completely different set of customers which so far has been delightful.

I have a 3 day weekend. And shockingly the time hasn’t filled up like it always seems to. Adam and I spent hours outside this morning.  We played on the swings and jumped in the leaves. We ran through the wet cold grass and went down the slides. We’re inside warming up now but it was just like before he started school.  The things we would do daily. Some of the things I miss.

Yes I have a ton of laundry to catch up on and the kitchen needs to be cleaned but those things can wait. At least until I finish this hot chocolate.

I could really get use to this. Weekends off, mornings at the park an afternoon with a hot chocolate to unwind.

After being very sick this week, I think this weekend is exactly what my mind and body needed.